Strumming the strings on the guitar flooded my mind with happy memories. Kind friends who pitched in together to buy that particular instrument for my graduation. Cute boys who taught me chords and strum patterns. Warm college days singing and making up new sounds just for the fun of it. Joy surrounded my heart and I smiled at the happy memories.
What is it about music that touches me? What is it about lyrics that grab me and make me finally feel understood?
Some of this musical nostalgia undoubtedly stems from my recent Netflix addiction to Glee. Bursting into song on any occasion with the drama of a soap opera, Glee is a fun indulgence.
I wish we could sing when we didn't know how to say what we are feeling. I suppose my kiddos at work would run out of my office if I asked them to sing out whatever was bothering them.
What is it that makes me afraid to sing out? What stops me from sharing my voice, my thoughts in song, with the world around me?
What stops you?
There are days when I feel so confident. I feel beautiful and smart and like every person I meet is fascinating, worth knowing. Funny how those two things go together. When I feel better about who I am, I feel better about who you are too.
It's been tough to feel confident lately. Another birthday is coming nearer. Although I've accomplished what I wanted to professionally. My dream of having a husband and a family feels even further away then it did before all my recent transitions.
My confidence in myself has to come from deep within. I don't have anyone telling me how beautiful I am on a regular basis. So I have to tell myself that I am beautiful, and I'm not always believable.
Expressing myself through music, through writing, through art, help me to see just a bit more clearly. Because the more I see myself as a confident, beautiful woman, the more I see you for your true beauty. So this post today is a reminder that you are an incredible human being, worthy of love and admiration.
Spread the beauty.
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